There was a time in my pathetic elementary school days where I would crave attention. Where all the eyes would be on me and people would pass through whispers praises on my style, my adventures, and all the other aspects of the ideal image I was projecting. I also wanted friends with the same perfect style and perfect body and perfect houses and perfect perfect perfect social life. I wanted to be part of them. I really did. And then came reality like a huge slap across the face after watching enough Gossip Girl and Glee and all those sitcoms directed to young girls like me. Those TV shows told stories of the most popular girls in school and how messed up their lives were. They were the most talked not only because they had things that people coveted, but because there were things that were worth talking about them. Bad things. And soon enough people would zoom in on every aspect of their life and end with a two sentence criticism that could make you cry. That is why I also very much respect the popular girls in school since they could more or less handle all of this shit being said about them behind their backs.
By the time I reached high school I realized that popularity is full of bullshit. Who gives a shit if you went to this club that one night or if you have this extremely new dress? And honestly, who would want to go through all that social anxiety that comes when people talk about you? I have a good group of friends. We all would make adventures worthy of the future and when we look back at them, we wouldn't feel regret or sadness. That one thing that popular girls lack is true friendship. They cling to each other for the sake of their social status, not for themselves. If one of them were to dare exit their ring, it would be one of the most controversial topics of the school's history.
I am not popular. But I do get a long with mostly everyone in my class. I have a good group of friends. I do believe that that is more satisfactory than getting 156 likes on Instagram for that one selfie or getting 50++ retweets or favorites on Twitter.
- Anna Cayco