Reign: Oh god I know how you feel. You have to learn to accept that you just don't do things the way your friends do. Yeah, sometimes it's difficult to be left out but i'd rather not be in a situation I feel uncomfortable with, you know? You don't have to change or do things differently just because you're not like everybody else. You also don't have to have a lot of other friends, a small group of pretty awesome people will do you good. Embrace your introverted self. If you like the way you are and what you have then...if it ain't broke don't fix it.
Anna: Introversion doesn't mean just being shy you know. I guess you're just shy. And I don't think there is anything wrong with that. If you feel like you're forcing yourself to be someone you're not, to push yourself onto the point of being uncomfortable, stop. It isn't going to help you or anyone else for that matter. You can walk away, there's nothing wrong with that. If your friends are the type to misunderstand that move, don't wait for them to bring it up. Tell them immediately in private that you just feel uncomfortable. And that doesn't mean they should stop socializing with other people of course.
"I really want to kill myself, to end the suffering I go through, to help ease the burden on my parents' shoulders. I know how expensive it is to send me to one of the country's best universities and I know how hard my parents are pushing themselves just to send me to school. I don't want them to suffer anymore. Then again, if I do kill myself, funeral fees are quite high as well. Tangina. It's so expensive to live, it's also so expensive to die. Puta. Ayoko na talaga."
Reign: You're thinking of ending a short-term problem with a permanent solution. And I say it's a short-term problem because in comparison to death, which is forever, it technically is. I don't know how much you have suffered but what I do know is that there are other possible ways to deal with your issues and other means to help your parents financially. It may seem very difficult but that doesn't mean you should give up. Things will be better eventually, you just got to push through for that to happen. Because when you hit your lowest low, the only way to go now is up. Whatever you decide, it'll affect not just you but also everyone and everything that you have done. Please think this through.
Anna: Death is not the solution. Think of it this way, the fact that your parents are spending their hard earned money for you to get an education means they believe that they are opening your doors for a lot of opportunities in the future. How do you think your parents would feel to know that you're going to kill yourself before you even have a chance at actual life? Also, money aside, no one wants their child to commit suicide. Let them spend because that is what parenting is about. This will all end when you get a job after college. Focus on your studies first so that you can get a high-paying job so you can return the favor to them eventually. If you're extremely worried about their health, talk to them first before you do anything rash.
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